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'A New Beginning'

Right now I am in a process of grieving. It's not easy working your ass up for seven to eight months or so just to win a girl and she ended up to some one else in one day (Ain't that a B*tch). I even Deleted my Facebook account just so I could not see any traces of that certain person in my Time Line. My friend told me that it was a stupid decision. But, I thought 'I don't have any other choice ' cause I will be tempt to look at her profile and then I'll just hurt my self if I saw something that I don't want to see.

Any ways...

My Goal right now is to just move on and get over with it as soon as possible. It really gives me a hard time doing things out. I just got hired to a certain BPO company here in Cebu (For the fifth time). Thing is I was hoping I could start working immediately so that I could keep my self busy, but, the problem is my start date was moved from this coming Monday to the 21rst of this month. So I have almost two weeks to find any other alternatives. Hopefully Red Cross can provide that for me. Wew! Taking up classes and sh*t.

I also kept on bugging other people by texting them about anything that I could think of. Sending group messages just to hope for someone to text back and text with so that I could take off my mind from thinking about her. I also tried indulging my self with my guitar. Learning some songs and Video Shooting it as if its my own cover. Actually I just posted a video in my YouTube account:


And yes, I also included my bro in this. He did like the song so he just sang along. (Hehehe)
I decided to do a lot of stuff just to keep my self busy. Because a single moment that I am doing nothing, especially if I am alone, I can't stop thinking about it, and it hurts you know. So from now on I'll be doing a lot of stuff, and one of'em is making covers of some songs that I like. Although I can not write a single song right now. But I do have one song that I wrote before, I haven't finished it yet. It was for my X-Girlfriend before the newly announced X-GF. I though it was, for a lack of better word, "Sayang". It was quite a nice song after all, I don't want to put that to waste. And about the "Forever" video, I'll just have to shoot another version of that. I deleted it 'cause it has her pictures on it. And I may try to enhance the audio too so that I could get rid of the Cockodoodledoo in the background. (hehehe)

So wish me luck with the DABDA process (it's a Nursing Psychia thing) and I hope I could recover as soon as possible so that I could get back to my old self again and be doing a lot more better post that this. (^^,)

Good Night Every One..!

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