GRAY and BLUE

It's a nice morning for everyone, hopefully, and another day to think about work and all sort of stuff. I do need to make it up to a special person for leaving her hanging last night. I was really sleepy. Sorry. Hmm... I don't know what I am feeling right now. I mean, despite of the back aches and allergies that I'm experiencing today, I'm still positively thinking about things, about my job and about her. But I am kinda worried about me snoozing of to her. Ahehehe... (^^)' I really did not meant for it to happen. I'll treat you somewhere someday when I will be having my ATM. So, back pains, wew! But, better that heart aches right? (Cheezy...) I guess I had too much sleep since the other day. If I would add it all up it would give me almost 24 hours of sleep. That's too much, I guess I need to work out. But when will that be? My schedule is a 11am-8pm for this week and it will change again next week. Is it ok to jog at nine in the evening? W...

It took me a while to start this post.  For the past Thirty minutes my mind was blank.  And at the same time I was watching "Dinner for Schmucks". Despite of the gloomy mood that I have, as the result of reminiscing, the movie gave me a bit of glow. But, that was just for a short time before the movie ended. So right now I'm back again. (sigh) Last night, I had a great time with my co-workers/trainees while enjoying bottles of beer. We laughed, talked a lot of stuffs, plan things out, sang out loud and many more. It was fun. But in every blast of laughs and giggle, I find my self smirking and shaking my head. Having deep thoughts and just being silent. Its as if every where I look there is always something for me to remind me of. Not to mentioned familiar songs played by the band. My friends can't help but notice it and just gave me a tap on the shoulder saying, "It's going to be OK." And I said, "Don't worry, I'm used to this, I...

Funny thing happened. You all know the Facebook question, right? The "What's on your mind?" question. I thought this question is quite stimulating in a way. But then I paused and think... "What is on my mind right now?" And I totally know what it is (or 'Who it was for that matter). But here is another question... "Is there even a slightest amount of mutuality to Her?" And then after that I remembered the song "I Don't Want To Wait in Vain For Your Love" by Bob Marley and the Wailers... No matter how I try to stay positive about it, I can't help but think of this thought. "You can't hurry Love, but are you sure it is meant for you?" I can't avoid worrying. Am I loosing this gamble? 'Doubts' This is one powerful characteristic that people instinctively acquire. Most of the time it helps in terms of survival, but sometimes can be deadly and turn into jealousy. In my case is dif...

Hi Guys! So as promised I have here a sample Video of my song "The Stupid Highway". Although its just a link to my Facebook account 'cuz, for some reason I can't upload the video here on my blog. And also I changed the name from 'Stupidity Highway' to "Stupid Highway" 'cuz it sounds better. So here it is the video and some changes in the Lyrics. Enjoy! "The Stupid Highway" Covered by the shadows of regret And still I'm heading that way I recognize all these mistakes But still I'm headed that way Blinded by the Light of yesterday Consuming all Denial along the way Oh no! I'm heading that way Ooh I'm heading that way Smoking out the essence of dismay I'm walking on the same pathway I'm weary from the thoughts of all the pain Still walking on the same pathway Knowing that its all just the same I never learned from my old mistakes 'Cuz Baby, I'm heading your way Hmm... The St...

Today, I have decided to move out from my home and just be a man on my own. I've always wanted to do this ever since I graduated from college. But why does it took me almost three years to decide? Simple, because I still cannot stand on my own during those times. Even up until now, I'm not sure if I can solely support my self, financially speaking. I don't even have a place to move in to. But why move out if I cannot still support my self? Simple again, because I had enough. I'm so tired of this prison like status. I want Freedom! Free from the obligation and the responsibility of asking permission every time I go out of the house. Free from the idea that I have to go home early just so mu Mom wont worry. Free from every thing that is holding me back from doing what I Love and what I want. Freedom. In two weeks time. And I hope that is the time. But then, even if we are literally free from those walls, we are still a prisoner of our own. Imprisoned by the ...

Ever tried lying on the grass and admiring forms of clouds in the sky? I know you have seen this kind of setting. It's cute. It's for friends, lovers, and... Winnie the Pooh Bear together with his best friends (Or what ever makes you happy). Yes it is a very nice experience. Just watching the clouds and relaxing (Sâler!). Then suddenly you stood up and looked at a single little pink cloud. And you thought, "Why is there a pink cloud?". And you started walking... You are walking while you're lured by the cloud to a certain death.  But it feels good. It's so nice and gooey inside. You are so happy just staring at that cloud. You even try reaching it with your arms and grabbing it and wanting to have it for your own. You did not even noticed the very big smile on your face and the glitter on your eyes.  And there your are running, giving all your effort with a smile! With out noticing the impending doom that you are heading. You are like this big ass lu...

Covered by the shadows of regret And still I'm heading that way I recognise all these mistakes But still I'm headed that way Blinded by the Light of yesterday Consuming all Denial allong the way Oh no! I'm heading that way Ooh I'm heading that way Smoking out the essence of dismay I'm walking on the same pathway I'm waery of the thoughts of all the pain Still walking on the same pathway Knowing that its all just the same I never learned from my old mistakes 'Cuz Baby, I'm heading your way Hmm... The Stupid Highway This is just the lyrics of my new song. It still needs more finishing though. I still need to capture this in video so that I can share it here. Keep posted for the tentative arrangement of this song in video.

They say that our mistakes are the key to learning. With out failure, you cannot appreciate the essence of success. So making mistakes is normal and healthy in a way. But if you are doing the same mistakes time and time again, they say its 'Stupidity'. It's like You walking on the same alley where you were stabbed and robbed yesterday and still went through it. According to the Dictionary, Stupidity or Stupid is acting in an unintelligent or careless manner. According to Me, it's simply just being blind about reality and still hammering your self with the same mallet of foolishness just because it felt so good inside that you are addicted to it. And so there you are doing it over and over again. I was thinking of using a different title for this certain writing. A title that best fits the feeling that I have right now. I'm living a day dream that can never come true. But it felt good and so real. Oh my God. I'm bitching around. This is the side effect ...

... Actually I don't know how to start this... I'm still being mesmerize by a conversation that I had awhile ago. And at the same time I'm sleepy. Just watched Harold and Kumar's third movie trailer and it's about Christmas (Which is unexpected). (Hmm... Suddenly I lost track to what I am supposed to write... hehehe...) Any way... So there I was with this special friend of mine and we had a little chat. The kind where you talk about what you think, feel, and planing to do with your life. A serious talk or a heart to heart talk as they say. I was about to go home when we stopped at their doorstep and just talked. Then to stir up the conversation she asked, "What do you hate about me?" So I was like, "What?" At first I really can't say a thing that I hate about her. Like REALLY HATE about her. But eventually I did (Just some small tolerable things. Hehehe...). After I gave her one thing that I hate about her, I threw the quest...

There is this section of our life that we need to think about things we need, things that we want to do which will give us contentment and stability. According to Webster- Priorities, or priority, is something given or meriting attention before competing alternatives. In other words, it is that time where you sip your coffee (or hot Milo drink in my case) in the morning while you think of tomorrow. Or maybe reading the news paper and you discover that you need a bigger house. So what are your priorities? House and Lot? A nice Car? Getting laid? Be the best in a certain field? We all have these kinds of dreams. I bet as early as prep school you already thought if these stuffs. Well, I did too. But, not until I reached High School. I was just a kid back then (well, we all are). But, the difference is that I'm a kid with no foresight. I did not think of the future. I can't even decide what coarse I should take in college. When I was a kid I use to think of my self as a fig...