'The Boat is Sinking'

Funny thing happened.

You all know the Facebook question, right?

The "What's on your mind?" question.
I thought this question is quite stimulating in a way.

But then I paused and think...

"What is on my mind right now?"

And I totally know what it is (or 'Who it was for that matter).

But here is another question...

"Is there even a slightest amount of mutuality to Her?"

And then after that I remembered the song "I Don't Want To Wait in Vain For Your Love" by Bob Marley and the Wailers...

No matter how I try to stay positive about it, I can't help but think of this thought.

"You can't hurry Love, but are you sure it is meant for you?"

I can't avoid worrying. Am I loosing this gamble?

'Doubts'

This is one powerful characteristic that people instinctively acquire. Most of the time it helps in terms of survival, but sometimes can be deadly and turn into jealousy.

In my case is different. When In doubt I usually push further and just throw a wild decision with out thinking. Just follow my gut feeling. Especially in terms of playing games. But when it comes to the matters of the Heart, it just gives me great amount of discouragement and despair.

You might be wondering what is the funny thing that I mentioned earlier.

It's this question:

"What the hell am I waiting for, if I am in great Doubt?"

The answer?

Two things.

"Hope"...

and "Foolishness."

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